16th November

Mama’s Simple and Sweet Birthday

Hi everyone,

It has been quite sometimes since I last updated my blog. Well, I still haven’t get the modem fixed yet and I’ve been busy with data collection these few weeks. So many things had happened, some are good some are not. Anyhoo, the important thing is I’ve completed my self discovery quest of walking on my own foot on Penang Bridge on the 16^th. It was absurd and I have to say self fulfilling experience. I managed to finished the marathon 10minutes I reckon by the due time so I scored myself a cert. He he. I can’t wait to join it again next year! But I have to say that due to lack of any training, and frozen fats that were installed in my butt and thighs, I ended up walking like a deluded zombie for two days after the marathon. And it was really embarrassing as on the Monday, I had my last paper and it was held at the main exam hall. So there were like 100 students were staring at me like I am some kind of exhibitioner or what not. But that was passed so let bygone be bygone.

Then a little flashback, so we went to celebrate my mom’s birthday at Jonhhy’s Steamboat as she was really craving or should I say hinting (hehe) for a steamboat meal. Most of us were there and we snapped few so called candid pics (seen below).

It was a very simple birthday celebration but it was definitely a sweet birthday. So that’s all the updates for weekend that I have been anticipated the most. Well, I’ve new anticipation target which is tomorrow’s night! I’m so gonna watch Twilight’s sneak preview tomorrow!! Yahoo!

And as this is so called special entry dedicated to my mama, so there will be no word of the post but blurts of the post instead.

Dia mama aku.

Mama aku adalah seorang yang fantastic. Cukup perfect bagi mataku and dia menerima kasih sayang dan cinta aku sepenuhnya. Dia seorang yang tabah walaupun dia sering menangis (aku harap itu adalah tangisan kegembiraan). Hidupnya selalu dicemburui orang lain. Anak-anaknya merupakan lulusan unviersiti, masa hadapan mereka kelihatan akan cerah seperti matahari terik sewaktu zohor. Tetapi, sebagai anaknya, aku tahu akan kesusahan she’s been facing all her life. Aku tahu that her tears are tears of joy and tears of pain. Seringkali aku risau akan mama aku. Aku risau akan diri aku tanpa mama aku. Bolehkah aku survive? Sebagai anak bongsunya, aku dikatakan paling manja dengan dia. Walaupun penat aku mengatakan aku bukannya seorang yang manja.

Di waktu ini aku sedang duduk dengan selesanya di study corner/mini studio aku didalam bilik mama aku. Sudah jam 2.15 pagi dan aku dapat dengar mama aku tidur dengan lenanya. Siang tadi dia pergi kenduri sampai di seberang, letihnya mama aku. Looking at her sleeping peacefully, buat aku rasa this huge lump dalam tekak aku, rasa sebak, rasa sayang yang amat. Aku mengaku aku seorang yang ego that’s why I never confess my love to mama aku. Tengok dia sekarang, aku wondering macam mana aku dapat membalas jasanya yang tak terhingga pada aku. Cukupkah dengan kasi duit bulan-bulan bila aku dah kerja? Dapatkah aku menjaga dia seperti dia jaga aku masa baby dulu? Or even scary, dapatkah aku didik anak aku nanti untuk rasa takjub dan sayang kepada aku seperti mana aku sayang dan takjub kepada mama aku? Takutnya…

Mama, mama, mama. If only I would bruise my ego and tell you how much I really love you and how much I really treasure you as my mother, as my friend, as the best human being I ever know and most of all as an unrepeatable miracle in my life. I will you know, I will bruise my ego before it’s too late. I just need the right time and I want to be really sincere and honest when I say those wonder words. Just like you, I never fail to pray for your well being and good health and if only you know how much it hurt me when you are not feeling well, and how much it really hurts me when you are pissed with me. Being with you, having the peluang to see your face everyday means a lot to me because I know this wont last forever. Mama, mama, mama, you mean the world to me =)